Friday, March 07, 2008

Periodic Oddysey


What would you have liked to have achieved 10 years from now? she asked.

Hmm not big on achievement. More ruled by compulsions, both good and bad.

You're avoiding the question, as usual.

Not deliberately just been in this Russian roulette mood for so long. No, No don't get alarmed. Was just speaking figuratively. Rest assured no suicidal ideation, depressed mood, etc. No, it's just that I think it's hard for me to make plans. I'm one of those people who find life in the detours. At least that's how it's been so far. Well, the best parts at least.

Ok tell me about where you hope your compulsions lead you 10 years from now.

Better. That I can answer.

Ten years from now I hope I have the time and freedom to write. It's a compulsion for meaning. It's the only way I can measure a passage of time and not have felt that I missed it. Not very clear but that's all I will say for now.

Hope my bourgeois vocation allows me some freedoms to take detours. Different places, in parts removed.

Read. So much I want to read but it seems intrusion is always nearby. My ambition always outstrips my reach as in pretty well everything I do.

Firmly believe in the supernatural but have only had one encounter with it. Would like more so I can dispel the doubts.

Live in South East Asia and take in Buddhism in the way the people there see it or at least strive for it.

Live in Italy for an extended time and experience the dolce vita, the wicked and corrupt side as well as the good.

Be there for my parents if they need me. The least I can do.

work and live in London so I can experience both sides of the class divide.

Return to India more often

That's much more than I expected from you. okay tell me 10 things you miss.

Things no people yes. That's all I can say

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